How long before they make me a devil?
How long before you won't let me hold you?
How long before love is conditional?
How long before my worth drops out of view?
Now, in love and peace I rock you to sleep.
How long before you think me unworthy?
Now, my baby I hold, sweet dream so deep.
How long before I must earn your mercy?
But I know our love, greater than they say.
A pure bond joins us, unchained, free of claim.
We'll strive together for this love to stay.
Oh please, sweet child, hold me free of this pain.
Born free of judgement, faith brings other to life.
How long before faith makes me other, your strife?
Search, Ponder,
Travis,
ReplyDeleteI don't know even half what you are going through. But I am human, acquainted with loss, the prospect of distance in proximity, unrequited love in a harsh world.
I believe what you wrote in stanza three. God is bigger than any religion. Our identities are bigger than anything any religion gives us. I believe that your child will be different than what you fear simply because you are different. As long as love remains in you and between you and your child the bond will hold. Even if your child pulls away from you sometime under confusion, being misled, or just to get perspective, I believe, if love remains, there is still more than hope.
Although, I don't know what you are going through, I know enough of pain, fear, and sadness that I want you to know I'm sorry for what you are going through.
Love for you,
spartacus